Today was quite a good day. Much better then yesterday of course. I just recovered from a skin allergy effect which the people like to call "hong moh" I just had a sudden outburst of that yesterday and i was itching all over. I had like patches and patches of lumps which look like mosqitoe bites but just that they are all over my body and it was very very very itchy. My dad had to send me to hospital at night to get some medicine and to confirm that wadever i caught was the skin allergy. Was quite terrible.

Anyways, Mich, I'm back online but i'm using another account. I want to get away for a while cause alot of the people i know are like cant be bothered when i talk to them, so i'm taking a break for a while. But as for you, I love to talk to you anytime anyday. So if u come online, do give me a sms and i'll come straight online if i'm at home kaes. Miss taking to you, free sms la.. i very pai seh leh everytime sms you first. And btw, feb 14 is it confirm ? Cant wait to see you. Its a good day for our first meeting as well. hee. take care k hun. ta ta

Came back to blogger caz someone wanted to read otherwise i simply have nothing to write about in my life. Haven been feeling well this past few weeks, coming in and out of depression. I'm also falling ill. Went to Escape today and now having a splitting headache. Argh, i'm just so depress right now, it always happens at night. Think i should go sleep. Sorry to disappoint those who wanted to read. Why dont try listening to the song below. Its a very nice song.

Surface - Shower Me with Your Love Lyrics

My heart is filled with so much love
and I need someone I can call my own
To fall in love that's what everyone dreaming of
I know this feeling oh so strong

Life is too short to live alone
Without someone to call my own
I will care for you
You will care for me
Our love will live forever

Chorus:

Shower me with your love
Shower me with your love that I look for
Shower me with your love
Shower me with your love I've been waiting for

I close my eyes
And pray all my wishes come true
Everynight I go to sleep
Until you're mine I'll wait for you endlessly
Can't you see

Fairy tales they do sometimes come true
If you believe it could happen to you
Like the stars that shine
Way up in the sky
Our love will live forever

Today was quite an alright day. Went to work as usal and the good thing is that today ron wasn there so i had to run the helpdesk. Dint get any arrows today haha. Got quite a number of calls though. But the best thing today was that i have a new notebook which we converted into helpdesk mobile. Haha. Then after work, Lu and I went to the hub to sing ktv with our good friend kevin. He sings damn well, esp songs by bee gees and the beatles. He can do an exact mimic of staying alive. I also found out that he has a 16 yr old son. N all i kept thinking was, what a blessing his son had to have such a cool dad. I mean there should be its disadvantages but i've always wanted a dad like that. Ok anyway, Rachael was there today. She told me something about nick which i totally feel the same way. I feel bad for talking behind people's back but it was really unbearable. So to make up i shall not note it down. ( I'm just lazy anyway ) :P

Anyway, came home and had a chat with caryn again. She wasn in a good mood tonight caz she dint had her medicine. Its kinda hard to understand her especially with my powers blocked. But somehow, i know that she was feeling well even countless times when i ask her if she was ok. We had another chat about whether should I care for her. I don know how to desribe her. She just want to be left alone to self destruct. N I want to know y? But all i can say is, as long as i'm around there is no way she can do that. Haha. I love her alot that i would do anything just for her.

Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind,
And therefore is cupid painted blind.
Nor hath love of any judgement taste,
Wings, and no eyes, figure unheedy haste.
Therefore is love said to be a child,
Because in choice he is so oft' beguiled.

~Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream

*yawn, my eyes are shutting down, time to go sleep.

Another year has gone
Written by: Leonard H. Sim (2003)
Insipired by: You are not alone by MJ

Another year has gone, i'm still all alone
How could this be, that she's not here with me
She never said goodbye, someone tell me why
All she did was too, treat me all so cold

Everyday i would sit and ask myself why it had to be this way
And this is what i told my friend that day

"You are not alone, we are here with you
Though you're far away, we are all here to stay"

"You are not alone, we are here with you
Though you're far apart, we'll never break up."

Then on new years night, something cross my mind
why I feel this way, that there's no one here to stay
What i need is love, and that i hardly have
Everytime i go, i will sure to fail

Now i right sit down and ask myself, y must it be this way
I look up at the love Goddess and say

I am all alone, y aint she here with me
Why everytime i love, i will sure to fail

Now i'm all afraid, to manifest that pharse
What have i done, to not deserve that fate

I'll be here waiting for you
Together we've been through everything,
Some good times and some bad.
Some things have made us happy,
Others made us sad.
But no matter what has happened,
Through our tears and our mistakes,
You've always been here for me
To fix my heart before it breaks.

We've gone from heartaches to headaches,
Gone from fights to fears.
But I've always seen you by my side,
To pick me up and dry my tears.
Through rain or sunshine,
Whether it may be wind or snow,
I can always count on you to be there
Wherever we may go.

Even through our different troubles,
The won'ts the can'ts the will's,
You'd travel any distance,
Mountains, roads or hills.
Announcements or secrets,
Whatever they may be,
I'll always be here to lend an ear,
You can always count on me.

We've shared our secrets with each other,
And it continues going strong.
We've stayed best friends through decisions made,
Whether they be right or wrong.
As our lives change back and forth,
From one thing to another,
We will always stay in contact,
Best friends forever.

Through the years we've grown so close,
And I wish for hundreds more.
But if you need help then I'll be here...
Because that's what friends are for.

Hee. =) so happy today. Firstly caz its the last paper of my exams. Donno if i did well but heck care, it will be 2 months later before i know the results so first... yipee! Exams are over. *sorry to those who are still going through it* hee. Secondly caz today is my birthday and i have great friends who remembered it. Its not the presents and the treats that is the most important.. its remembering someone's birthday that meant a lot. Thanks to all those ppl who remembered my birthday.

. Mich hun
. My darling vanessa
. My wonderful God-sisters, Caryn and Singhui
. My best friend
. And all those wonderful ppl at NAC.

Thank you all for making my birthday such a memorable one. Love you guys. *hugs*

Read Slowly...


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?

If you care about me as much as I care about you

you will send this back

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

hmm.. exams are starting tmr so before i begin studying and stressing myself out, thought that i should make one final blog before 2 weeks later. hate exams.. but after that Woo hoo.. i'm a diploma holder.. but then again, holder of a lousy diploma. So after tat still have to go to a poly.. having like how many months of holiday. Sigh need to go find work again. Hopefully i can get a job at NAC.. tat place is like a home to me even though recently alot of things have been happening caz of one of the facilitators there who backstabbed me thinking that sh'e soind the right thing. Sigh don wanna talk about it.

Gtg now.. study time..

Kids Explain What Love Is

Since a very long time ago, people have searched

for the meaning of love. But even the great

philosophers, with their profound definitions, could

not fully touch its true essence. In a survey of 4-8

year olds, kids share their views on love. But what

do little kids know about love? Read on and be

surprised that despite their young and innocent

minds, kids already have a simple but deep grasp

of that four-letter word.

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume

and a boy puts on shaving cologne

and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat

and give somebody most of your

French fries without making them

give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And

you get so mad but you don't yell at

him because you know it would hurt

his feelings."

"Love is when my mommy makes

coffee for my daddy and she takes

a sip before giving it to him, to

make sure the taste is OK."

"Love is when you tell a guy you

like his shirt, then he wears it

everyday."

"Love is if you hold hands and sit

beside each other in the cafeteria.

That means you're in love. Otherwise,

you can sit across from each other

and be okay."

"Love is when mommy sees daddy

smelly and sweaty and still says he

is handsomer than Robert Redbird."

"I know my older sister loves me

because she gives me all her old

clothes and has to go out and buy

new ones."

"When you love somebody, your

eyelashes go up and down and little

stars come out of you."

"You can break love, but it won't die."

The Leaf and the Wind

from the book "Tell Me Another Story," by Lisa Suhay

Leaf looked out across the broad, dawn-pink sky and down over the beautiful
spring garden. The dewy breeze grazed it and left it shimmering, fluttering.

As it moved, Leaf saw all the corners of the garden with its flowers, bushes,
trees and animals. Leaf stretched to catch every sight and sound. It was a
new leaf at the top of a very old tree. Leaf adored all the elements - wind,
sun and rain. But it was in love with the wind.

Wind gave it the freedom of motion. Without the breeze it would never have
seen the world below or from side to side. Wind rocked Leaf to sleep and shook
it awake. Wind made Leaf dance. Wind whistled haunting tunes through the
branches, it whispered and sometimes it even sang.

On many days, Wind told Leaf of the places it had been. "All across the
Rivers and down to the sea have I been," whispered Wind. On that day, Leaf
could even smell the scent of the water and salty places of which Wind spoke.

"High up the mountain to the very door of Heaven today," Wind told, as the
fresh clean smells settled down upon Leaf. "I have seen where the Blue-sky ends
and birds cease to wing. I have heard the voice of Life itself and it is so
beautiful."

Leaf shuddered with the thought of having Life speak to it as it did to Wind.
"When will life speak to me?" Leaf asked Wind.

The breeze warmed as it blew over Leaf and Wind said softly, "You can Hear
Life's voice in me." Whenever it blew past, be it a breeze or gale, the little
green leaf waved a joyful greeting to Wind - like the hand of a happy child to
a loved one.

"I will love you for all time," Leaf whispered to the moving air around it.
"I could not be happier."

Hearing this promise Tree itself shook and emitted a deep chuckle. "I am glad
you are happy now," the tree said. "Enjoy your youth and beauty while you
can, for soon enough you will be withered and brown, dry as dust and blown away
with by the same breeze that stirs your heart today."Leaf stiffened at these
words. The other leaves said nothing. One or two fell like tears before their
time, so stricken were they by the sadness.

"That is not so!" Leaf cried.

Tree shook again and said, "Oh but it is true. I have seen many, many leaves
from many trees fall and crumble. Your time will come to curse the wind and
the way of things. Wind is old and you are young. Ask Wind sometime."

The tree said no more. Leaf tried not to think about what Tree had said. Of
course it had heard the stories of how leaves grow old and die, but still it
would never be hateful.

That very day, Leaf made a decision. It shouted to the world, "I will Never
hate Wind. I will not give in to fear or unhappiness."

Still, the next time Wind came to call, Leaf could not help but ask. "When I
become old, dry and brittle will you destroy me as Tree says," Leaf asked.

Wind was silent for a long moment. "I will not destroy you my dear one," Wind
said. "All Earthly things grow old and dry. That is not my doing."

Leaf was shaking and Wind could see the fear beginning to overtake Leaf. Wind
added, "Keep your promise not to give in to hate and sorrow and when the time
comes for you to fall, I will be there to catch you. It will be a beginning
and not and end for you."

Again Leaf felt strong. "Tell me of your travels," Leaf said. Wind spoke well
into the night.Time passed. Leaf grew and changed. At first it became very
big and strong. Then, as the air grew chill, Leaf began to take on the most
magnificent colors. First a yellow cast and then little patches of red and gold
began to creep across it.

"You are most beautiful today," whispered Wind. "I do not think that of all
the leaves in the world there is one to match you."

Leaf shook a bit, knowing full well that many of the others had also begun to
change and take on different hues. Still, the words brought joy.

"It is the beginning of the end for you and all your kind," Tree said.

"Soon now, oh so soon, you will be nothing but a speck in the dirt."

All the other leaves began to droop and some even tumbled from their homes
early as the weight of that unhappy thought dragged them down to Earth.

Not Leaf. "Words, words, words," Leaf laughed. "You cannot harm me with
words. I choose to be happy with my fate. Others choose to be sad. The only one
who will be sad when I am gone is you old tree for then who will you talk to?"

Tree shook with frustration and anger. "You will see," Tree bellowed. "You
will be dirt!" As days passed Leaf began to feel thin and tired. The bright
colors that covered Leaf darkened to brown and Leaf knew its time grew short.
Still it would not be sad because each day now Wind told Leaf of the wonderful
adventures that were to come.

Just seeing Leaf cling to happiness while all those around it fell made Tree
angry. One day it could stand it no more and when Wind came to call, Tree
shook for all it was worth and Leaf snapped away from its branch and began to
fall.

Tree watched and waited for Leaf to scream and cry, to realize what horror
had just befallen it. Instead Tree heard the sound of laughter.

One moment Leaf was held fast to Tree and the next it was falling, flipping
end over end. "I am flying!"Leaf laughed in pure joy.

"You are falling! Plunging," shouted Tree.

"I am soaring like a little bird," Leaf sang out. "See how I go!"

Leaf felt something lift it up. It was Wind come to keep its promise. "I
cannot take you far right now, just to rest on the ground. No matter what
happens, do not be afraid. I will return for you." Wind carried Leaf ever so gently to
the ground and allowed it to rest there. Leaf could feel the rumble of the
roots from Tree as it laughed and said," You see? Now you are ready to become
like all the others. It is all just as I said. Just give up now."

Leaf was not stirred to sadness by Tree's words. It did not answer, but lay
quietly looking up at the world. It all looked so different now. After a time,
Leaf nodded off to sleep and a long time passed before it woke.

Instead of feeling old, stiff and papery, Leaf felt suddenly free to move
about. It could hear wind singing softly through the trees and felt itself
being lifted and spun higher and higher.

"Did I not promise all would be well," crooned Wind. "You have become the
dust of the Earth, so light and so fine that I can carry you anywhere with me."

And so Wind did carry the dust of Leaf and scattered it over fields, onto the
backs of birds that flew to mountains and into streams that led to oceans.
Finally Wind seeded the clouds with the last few tiny grains that were once
Leaf and Leaf came back to Earth with rains and snows.

Everywhere it fell the remains of Leaf brought a grain of pure joy, a drop Of
hope and touch of love for wind and life.

One day in springtime Wind rustled past Tree and heard Tree telling all the
young leaves about the Leaf that had loved the Wind and perished in the dirt.

Wind came back through Tree singing a breezy tune, "Listen my children, but
not to those who tell you that your fate is in the dirt. Listen to me instead.
I will tell the tale of how you will become Heaven's Dust. Believe and you
will never dread."

If ever you wonder which leaves listen to Wind and not Tree, look up on a
stormy day and see, which ones wave, a joyous greeting and which fall down in
sorrow.